Candolim (Goa), Sep 19 - Rakhi Sawant got engaged to Toronto-based businessman Elesh Parujanwala on national television and they are now learning the hardships of parenting on a reality show being shot here. The item girl confesses she is jittery about marriage and motherhood after having to change diapers and sing lullabies for a baby boy.

'I am very scared of being a mother now. I don't know what will happen when it happens in real life,' Rakhi told IANS at a villa here that has specially been hired for the show.

Rakhi is participating in NDTV Imagine's show 'Pati Patni Aur Woh' with her fiance Elesh.

The duo, along with four other celebrity couples, have been relocated to five individual villas here and they have to take care of infants as well as adolescents in the course of the show that goes on air Sep 28.

Rakhi and Elesh, who seemed quite comfortable in each other's company, are quite upset with their experience so far after playing parents to an infant named Jai under constant vigilance of six cameras in the house.

'It's been a very bad experience till now. It's like 'aasmaan se gira khajoor mein atka'. There is no enjoyment here. The only enjoyment is probably that we are together,' said Rakhi, who is sporting a new hairdo that she called 'cute and Barbie-like'.

'It's very difficult. We haven't even got married yet. I had never imagined I'll ever have to take care of kids like this and that too manage a kid who only cries and doesn't sleep. I had to change nappies when the kid pees and poops. It was disgusting. I didn't eat food for two days after that and couldn't even sleep properly,' she whined.

The item girl-turned-actress and her fiance, whom she chose in a 'swayamvar' on national television, are also distressed with the fact that in the process of taking care of the child, they hardly get time to know more about each other.